So something that I have been very bad with is feeling a sense of belonging. A few years ago I often had thoughts of just wanting to take my own life and honestly going back to where I came from! Then I don't know what changed my mindset but I think someone told me that I should rely more heavily on my Heavenly Father and trust in Him to give me a sense of comfort.
All of a sudden today I had that feeling again. I feel like I'm often misunderstood and that no one understands me. Sometimes when I talk to New Girl, I feel like she always judges me for the things that I say or that she thinks that I sound stupid when I try to voice my opinion on something. Now, don't get me wrong she is an amazing friend, she looks after me the way any friend would and she's always there for me. But sometimes I feel like she could try harder to pay more attention to me. The same way I pay attention to her when she is telling me something important in her life or when she is telling me about an article that she has read. I respond with an honest and sincere response but I guess we can't have it all.
I think another reason why I have been feeling so alone is because spending the whole day alone in this apartment without interacting different people, just communicating through Facebook and text message has DEFINITELY taken it's toll!!!!
It's so true what they say that, you may be surrounded by a lot of people within your social media but you can still feel like the loneliest person ever. I guess I just needed to vent a little because honestly I'm losing my mind! I guess I need to get out a little more or Skype or something because this is getting out of control!!!!
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